I would like to tell U. I finished Super Mario 3. Yes...Actually, I have the aid with save / load function otherwise, I cannot finish this game so easy ( but it was never smooth )

Boring work, the work is boring. I heard that I will do ASP ( Application Service Provider) starting from tomorrow. Will I still need to write user manual? Oh , come on, it's too boring...

Will I be the first one died becoz of the boredom?

Ar~~~~

I am done in writing user manual. It is very boring , no challenging, time consuming. I felt very sleepy becoz of that

Very boring in the work...Y they just paid for me sitting here and writing user manual. There is no challenging and never utilize my ability. Well...even it was like that, I still have to bite the bullet....

but I started to play Mario Brothers during break....well...I have to behave ... :P

Today was a public holiday. And I and my dad went to a outer Island for seeing 太平清醮, and one of the activities called "飄色", it's a marching and got some performance within it. The most famous performance of this marching was it got the kids poses a different position like standing on the one-leg chair buy only one leg or use one hand to raise up another partner ( don't worry, it's the "performance"). But today is too hot and too sunny. It's quite tough...

It's really not a good idea to joining travelling agent to travel.....really shit

Even I don't know what happened, I just know I am in big trouble.

Still...nobody wanted to tell me.

My back is going to crazy...shit...

I think that my back go some problem ....pain....

My back, my back is pain? shit, what happened...

Everyone will comment you whenever which side U are.

Therefore, I should not say anything. Then, just let them say and say...

Then, let me accumulate all of them and died becoz of it. It is because who will care U. Only myself care myself. Doesn't matter. Then, why I express it?

Everything happened in one go...nice....I still haven't been in development yet. I will do ASP ( Application service provider ) for 2 weeks...When can I go back?

I think that I should go back...go back

I really do not want that period coming back again ~~~~

Cont'd

Even I believe I am harmless, how come no people is still dare close to me.

For work, colleagues never asked me to have lunch with. Even I asked whether I can join. They just asked another or another. What did I do? I did not even talk to U. I wanted to open myself to others. But Y? It is just a dichotomy: "U should not close to the one U are not familiar with" Then, those who are new are always new. It just like exiling the new one. Y? Aren't we should be united? If U wanted to be reality, then I give U reality.

For friends, I really don't like hi-bye friends. And, I really don't want to be perfunctory deal with my friends. I am asking for the quality relationship. I understand "respect" is the basic thing I have to do. But, it doesn't mean that I know everything how I respect all people. Every human are individual. Some people just have their own standard. I understand that but I also need to know how. I think that not everyone are supposed others to understand everything ( maybe those are reminded many times before ) But I just want to say I really want to respect others. However, I just have no way to achieve that. I tried to talk. But just don't know how. I don't mean my friends have to be so friendly as me to them. It seemed that it was wrong I am "friendly" to them. I just want to find ways to respect others.

I really don't know Y. I have a strong sense that others just don't like my aura.

I believe I am harmless to others. However, I have to learn how I can stop myself not to surface everything implicitly.

The new application got a draft already. Most of the core functions got a draft design in it. I think that I can design one more function and its database schema tomorrow. Yes...this is good..

and Amazing~~~

I tried to module all the thing in a class diagram and I found out I don't need to implement all the classes in the same language or in OO. It is because the class diagram is just made us to have a clear mind in the structure of web application. But I am not saying I can't implement those completely in OO. But after consideration the current web design philosophy and technology, it maybe better not to implement all the thing in a OO language ( at least the layout should be used with html, dom, javascript and AJAX while the control layer should be used with Server side script language ).

In the past ( I mean when I was still taking my degree ), we all were asked to design the whole class diagram, but until now, I realized that I dun need to implement them with the same language or exactly some of them in OO. I just think that this is a tool to assist us to make a big picture clear.

Saturday and Sunday is always boring for me. I really don't know what I should do on that day. Actaully, I was really a boring person. After work, I don't have so much entertainment. I only browsed the Internet and read some user manual in programming. Oh man...I think that I told U before. Please speak with me in Computer Language.

Well...I am looking for the Master Course now. At least, I got something to fuck my brain...

Suddenly, I really play pc games, ps2 games as well...except ps2, I don't have any console can play pc games...shit....

Wooooo Hoah~~~ He's back. The development guy is back. Nice...Even better than before.

Any one cheer for me?

When human get bored and feel lonely, will they do something not often do in the normal time?

Some people will eat a lot and drink a lot. They just tried to take eat and drink as entertainment.

Some people like drug takers said they took drugs because they were bored and felt lonely. They wanted to use the effect of drugs to let them forget boredom and loneliness.

Some people would have sex with their closed friends or good friends or their partner, even with strangers. They wanted to use the orgasm to compensate the boredom and loneliness.

The above methods seemed that it will work sometime. However, it is just a short term. Some of them would also give U permanent or long-term harms mentally or physically.

Some people would try to live with this boredom and loneliness. They thought that it always happened in our life. We just got used with them. No need to do those kind of thing...

Some people accumulate this feeling a lot and cannot tolerate this anymore. They just found their friends. They just try to share it to them. Let them lessen your boredom and loneliness.

Well...I thought that at least these two methods are better. It is because U were facing them and live with them but not skipping or escaping it. Whenever U are able to go along with it more, the more U have strength to resist it.

Are U lonely?

Updated: 2007 Summer Movies List

I am trying hard to not leave any marks that can be traced back...

I watched "Umizaru: Limit of Love". Personally, I thought this movie was better than Spider Man 3. Even Spider Man 3 was quite good in its Visual Effect. However, the story was not so good in there. But in Umizaru, the story was a lot better. It really can describe the emotion of human being during the critical situation. There is no super power and advanced gears and stuff to overcome the situation. Everything is rely on the attitudes of the life: Never give up and Trust the relationship. It really tried to push the limit of human being beyond the previous limit.

and...this is Life...

I also set up Tomcat Server 6.0 in my machine as well. That's mean my machine got 2 web server: http web server and tomcat server. Nice. Then, my machine can run with php and jsp. Nice~~~

Well, it's time for me starting to design web application. Before that, I have to install Eclipse and some UML drawing tools.

I may see whether I will download Spring , Struts , Hibernate sometime later.

Finally, I made id3 module done in php. Nice...I can use php to manipulate id3 tags...Wow, I am so happy that ....It is because I spent a lot of time and effort on that and finally I really made it done.

I really want to share my happiness to her. I hope she also be able to feel that...

Well...may be she just thinks it's just normal........

I am super bored. Nothing to do. Just writing a user manual in the work.

How I can overcome this boredom?

I think that writing some program may help.

Shit man...then I will become a boring person...

Everything is related to program le....

Please use Java to talk to me later. It is because I am quite fluent in this language at this moment. U still can talk to me in C language because it is my mother language. In addition, talking to me in C++ is still not a problem because it is just my dialect.

If you really do not understand the language I mentioned above, U also try to talk me in a language U are professional in. Then, I will try to understand what you said. Don't worry. My professional skill is learning new language or technology as fast as possible...

Argzzz~~~Something cannot be said for the good sake.

I really have no idea how I can make id3 module working in php. I have already tried to recompile php myself. However, it still did not succeed. Then, I just made it more serious. I really went to www.id3.org and see any ideas for implementation. Then, I found out the implementation in java. Then, I tried to install the java external external myself and it seemed that it can recognize those api in that library. Well...in order to fufill my original plans before. I think that I will build the application with servlets and jsp. Well...I think that it's the 1st step...

Nice~~~

When I was in philosophy class before, I remember an example about tracing the thinking. The topic of the lecture is about the thinking of our human and we seemed that we are interested to trace back the path of human thinking. However, thinking is quite abstract. It is intangible. U cannot touch, see, smell, taste, listen. Therefore, some may think that what if we trace it from the other stuff which need our thinking to archive that. Therefore, they thought that playing chess may be one of the example which we can trace another's path of thinking of each other. Then, one of them moved a critical step and another cannot defeat and surrender. Then, we can conclude that the thinking of that guy is quite good , at lest is better than other. However, a problem was invoked: how did U know that guy really manage to move that critical step? How did U ensure that he was never in his luck and moved that step in blindfold? The problem here is we still cannot determine his path of thinking according to the outcome ( which is the critical move). It is because a chess master can move this step or a super lucky guy also can move this step while he is really on the peak of his lucky level....

Well...philosophy class always give U something to think. It's not so easy to have an appropriate answer. The reference for this topic can be lasted for few pages....

But I think that it may be quite easy to tell whether he is a chess master or just a lucky guy. U can just simply see whether he can take this as an advantage and then he can win at last. Otherwise, just say he 's just a lucky guy ( or dumb guy ) at that moment.

Human is a creature learning from experience and mistakes. For example, when U were still a kid, U did a maths for 5 + 6. At that time, U counted your fingers wrong. U put 10 instead of 11. Maybe, U forgot to add on after counting to 10 or U did not concentrate to count your fingers. Therefore, in the next time, U would pay more attention to do the maths with fingers especially add-on is necessary. As a result, you would get a correct answer in the next time.

Although our life is not so simple like doing 5 + 6, it is also similar as learning from mistake. For example, U made an mistake in deciding an issue that U were failure on that and U were fortunate enough to get a chance again to handle this issue again. Then, U also learnt from experience and performed a better play in the next time. In the meantime, U also noticed that the worse in your failure U've experienced, the more careful and better play in the next time.

However, did U also notice that one thing which is called "over". Don't ever think that perform too good maybe not a good thing. It's just made the situation worse. Once U made mistake before, then U will do too much to avoid all the mistakes. Then, U just concentrate to avoid those mistake and forgot what it should be like at last. As a result, U still cannot do the thing well.

I know this is quite hard to determine the level we should reach that we correct our past and improve ourselves. But I think that we can think in this way: if the whole picture was really improved itself after your correct operations done, then it is ok and fine. If the whole picture was actually worse than before after your correct operations done, then U know what to do.

How come it's came out again...painful~~~

I drank a lot of water but it still cannot help.

Gums, stop swollens~~~

It's so torturing....torturing...

Is it supposed to be like that?

or It just like that?

Shit man...Today's everything is not going well...

I used my login id of my Uni's computing account to login my own machine. Then U know what it happened next...

At the same time, I sensed that I am rebounding or may be it just a buffering...

When I watched "The Pursuit of Happiness", it mentioned Will's Smith and his son how to survive when Will was an apprentice. At that time, Will was so broke that he did not have any money to make his son and even himself to survive. They both relied on the last one ( or two ?) machine that they could get money if those machines were sold out. At the beginning, Will did not have any chance to sell this machine to hospital or private clinics. There's also one got stolen by happies. After he got back the stolen one, he was able to sell it out and get money. However, another was stolen by a tramp. Even he got it back finally, it's still spoiled and quite dirty. He also had to fix it himself and clean it up. At last, he sold the last one to the hospital and concentrate the practical in the firm. Well...maybe we ( probably only me)will think that once Will sold all of their machine, then he would get money and good thing would come to next. Like as Chinese said "否極泰來". However, real life is real life. Real life is also wild life. Even U can pass the early tough stage and a sweetie came after that. However, it really does not mean that real good thing has come already. Like Will in the movie, after he sold all the machine, the life did not improve as much as he thought. He also need to worry about his son and their living place. U can tell the situation was worse than before. At this stage, I ( probably me again )think that some of people may probably give up. Because they just passed the tough stages before. Finally, they must get the good thing and never happened again. Well, that is the living example. Bad thing still come. However, I ( Yes, only me again? )thought that the most important thing is our AQ. If our AQ is good to make sure we are able to survive in the worst situation. Then, we also win. Because , we were not defeated. Good Thing can still come to us. I have to declare I never denied "Good Things come after Bad Things"( 否極泰來 ) , but I have to emphasize that this is not the whole picture, it's just a process. We also have to aware that bad thing is still possible to come in any time.

This world did not have rebounding, just only have the strength to survive in wild environment.

I forgot to pay my credit card. Oh shit...I really broke this time

Shit....

I lost a lot money 5 days....damn

As I ate too much chili on Sunday and today, my throat is in pain again...shit~~~

I just update the list of 2007 summer movies....

Save money , save money, and watch it in 1st session which is the cheapest....

Money, Money , Money

Shit man, how come on the earth is so difficult to compile php into my system. How come, I really do not want to spend too much to install thing. And the most important thing is, IT'S NO PROGRESS after tones of efforts....or may be I dun work hard enough?

My Summer Movies Routines has been just begun. The 1st movie was Spider Man 3. I watched it on Sunday. However, I thought that this movie was just good in visual effect. The story was just ok. They just tried to group everything together, but not create the new one. Furthermore, there's a word "understanding" which is the soul of this movie. It's just ok la. Actually, I quite like the fighting scenes especially New Globin fougth with Peter Parker in the air...Nice

I dun think there's a Spiderman 4 becoz nothing new will be sparked.

ok, What's next? Pirates?

In order to set up my own development environment, I have to install those http server, php and mysql by compiling manually. Shit man, it seemed that I have no choice for that. But actually, it's just my call and I think that I can exercise those system administration skill...

Compiling...

Today, I lost HKD ＄6000. It was because I've just canceled the saving insurance which I had been paid for 3 months ( HKD $ 6000 ). And , the staff told me that I could not get those money back because I canceled it after 21 days. And then I cannot get back the money or I kept paid it for one year. Even if I pay 1 year, I only can get part of money if I cancel it. Therefore, I considered the opportunity cost. I think that I better cancel it right now. Otherwise, I don't have so much money to use.

Right now, please don't lecture me about this issue. I 've already paid a lesson for it.....

Leave me alone~~~

Oh Nice, I just did some research in Internet. I think that my planned web application which can improve the description of my files can be done in the following few days...

Maybe, I try to apply some Web 2.0 philosophy into it...and Ajax as well..

Should I use Dojo? or just exercise super programming skill to implement Ajax?

Nice~~~

Oh, well...I am struggling whether I should buy a psp....Buy ? Not Buy?

Finally, I set back the Chinese fonts without blur. Although, they are a bit weired ( include the english characters ), I think that they all are clear enough. Then it should be ok. hahaha...I have to set back the programming environment as as soon as possible.

Today, colleagues did not have so much work to do, but I still have tones of work to do. It was because I have to debug some programs and make sure the validation working in the program. Actually, it's a great challenge becoz I have to debug and enhance somebody's programs.

Around 1900, my supervisor was the last person ( except me ) in the office. At that time, I was still working hard in the debugging job. However, I noticed supervisor was going to leave. Therefore, I have to rush to pack up my stuff and then leave. Otherwise, my supervisor would think that I worked harder than him. Then, he would think that I wanted to "pretend" I worked hard even harder than him. Then , he did not work so hard....shit....

I was "forced" to go...

This is the working place I am looking forward:

Googleplex's Life

I treated a promised dinner to my friend yesterday evening. We went to a restaurant which the Hainanese Chickent Rice is really good there. After the dinner, we just walked around in Time Square and spent some time there.

Even I also did some window shopping with a gal, I dun feel any good this time. Maybe, I got something to think and I dun enjoy this window shopping with her.

See...?

Spiderman 3 is finally in the big screen. Actually, I quite like to watch Marvel Hero Movies ( except The Hulk from Lee An ). In addition, my favourite is Fantastic Four and Spiderman. It's becoz they really can use their brain and cooperated with their special power to save people. They just don't like Superman or somebody like that only use special power to save people ( sorry, superman's fans) . At least those two seemed that they are more "real".

In HK, it seemed that there are a lot of ppl expecting this movie. Whever there are the begin of showing sessions or the end of showing sessions, there are more ppl than the normal time...Well, I haven't watched it yet. I just wondered whether it would be more disapoointed when there is more expected.

Ok, see how...

I have to install Linux again...Actually, it's not becoz of a critical problem which would lead to a failure of the system. It just cannot install J2EE properly anymore. This problem was due to my "rm -rf" of the whole "~/SDK" folder when they provided uninstall script me for me to do uninstallation. As I cannot tolerate something malfunction in my system and I really have no idea the appropriate solution for this. Therefore, I reinstalled the whole Linux again. This destroy and grow approach at least worked for me if I really did not have any idea to solve. However, I had to spend a lot of time and re-config the system again.

Now, the 1st problem is I cannot set the chinese characters displayed properly and clearly just like before. Even if I followed instructions which I've established before, it still cannot work. Oh shit...and fuck~~~

Well...I thought that I was nearly dragged by a double - decked bus yesterday evening...

Yesterday, I took the bus when I was off. There was a traffic jam and the bus was full of bus. When I got off from the bus, the bus was still crowded. At that time, I was still listening my mp3. After I'd just stepped out from the middle door, the wire of my mp3 was hooked by a gal's back pack and jammed. At that time, the news about a gal dragged by a minibus surfaced in my head. I pulled the wires, it did not improve the situation. And, the gal did not know her fucking bag hooked my wire. I stepped back into the bus, untied it...and got off the bus at once.

Actually, that time was quite dangerous. It was because another who just walked in front of me was not leaving the bus. The bus driver would be so efficient that close the damn door. If I really torn back my wires outside the crowded bus, the bus driver definitely closed the door without noticing poor me and pressed the paddle. Then, I would be dragged by the bus...and then....

After this issue, my wire was completely "torn" out from my mp3 players and lost the sponge of the right ear phone...fuck