I think it's the critical point for me collapsing down physically and mentally. Hang on~~~, it will be over very soon.

Hang On~~~

Well, can U really lose yourself then survive?

Do you have courage to do the thing you think it's right no matter how hard it is?

These questions you need to consider...

How many people knew that I like reading Giddens 九把刀 's 小說 very much?

Err...Nevermind

Today is another start of the week....

I just knew that I have been this kind of life for very long time...and I also need to continue this kind of life for a while.

Remember, to make this worth....work as hard as you can...

I just received a news from my Uni student. Our department of Computing is going to be shut down. Well, it happened finally. I can't believe that a course we all paid our effort and worked hard is not going to be longer anymore. It seemed that our works before was not so recognized by the people right now.....or they were just chicken to avoid any thing tough or difficulties....

I have to work hard more ... I am still enthusiastic in this field.... I also can apply my knowledge of this field to my life or human life more better...

ARGZ~~~~

I had been the books fair the day before yesterday. It was crowded as usual. I just bought a book this year ( actually, it was not paid by me ). Thank You!

I seemed that I did not have any interest in some books. Or , I still had the same interest in some books I bought before. It just like my taste did not change in this year. Very bored...

How come it's so hard to chat with people? What's wrong? No more chatting then I will become a genius freak later...

Too much conflicts, but I found the way finally....

The current issue I need to think about is: how I can survive and pass through this stage?

Today got a test...I really did not review much. It seemed that there was a lot of thing to "memorize". As I have to reach Uni on time, I have to take a taxi. Well, whatever I have to suffer at this moment, I must get benefit from it. Then, the suffering would be worth...

It's quite tough. It's even more tough than before...

Remember: The first rule of economic: Opportunity Cost

Today is lack of rest. I felt tired and sleepy today. I just wanted more rest and also be able take care of my study at the same time. If I kept working hard, this tough days will be gone soon.

Even I worked hard, I still asked myself: am I walking alone?

I read some photos from my friends in Sydney, Australia. Even if I haven't stayed in Australia ( only taking transit plane at that time ), it still reminded me a lot of life in Australia. I wondered that I still can passed through that tough life at that time.

Then, y not I can't this time?

I can't GIVE UP~~~

When I became lazy, it would have disaster. Actually, it's quite true. Just like the deadline was supposed to be monday's night, but i played whole sunday. Then , I have to hurry to finish it in the last minute. Fortunately, i still can hand it on time. But I won't have enough sleep for the next day.

Especially, the new office had been moved to Cyber port. I think that I need to wake up early in order i won't be late too much and got found by boss.

Furthermore, the new working location was not very convience for having lunch. When I watched movie in cyber port last year, I found that this place was quite hard to find something which was worth to eat. Either it's too luxury , or it's still expensive. and Now I am really working here I think that I have to deal with this problem.....

I wanted to find more time to sleep, and review my study and do my assignments

It is the fact that people can find others problem and commented them easily. However, they are fail to find the same problem themselves.

And, I am one of those people.

I think I am a trouble maker during lecturer. It's becoz I always asked questions which can make the lecturer pausesd couple of seconds

My company is going to move to cyber port. Then I will go to new working place ( actually still the same company ) starting from tomorrow.

Human is great becoz they can light up others.

I was so sick yesterday. Maybe I was so lazy that I did not visit the doctor at once after throat-ache. Then, the illness became more serious. Maybe, my body warned me that it really needed a break. Well, I all took that and really sick and went to hospital and took medicine.

Shit, I still have two more assignments and two mid-term to go.

and Exam will be held about 1 month later. Can you endure until that time? Thank You!

I need to rest...

My mood is not very good not. It's becoz I got cold. My nose is running. Please leave me alone and let me concentrate to finish the assignment first

This feeling is back...When I was still in Uni, I had to had a quick lunch which was self-made sandwiches in the 1 hour break. In this hour break, I really could not rest too much. It's becoz I also had to prepare the next lesson. However, during this break, I always saw those dated boys and girls chatting happily with each other. At that time, I worked so hard becoz I had targets to achieve. During this time, I also had to endure this scenario. In the meantime, I just think that whether I should just forget about my targets and just do what those dated boys and girls do. I have struggled a long time. I never forgot my targets at that time....

This feeling came back again. I had no idea it came back. I kept telling myself I better worked hard and got a good result so that it's worth I spent most of my time in it.

Do not ask me Y I work so hard on it. U just does not undestand my reason in it. U can laugh at me about so dumb for not enjoying life. But I can tell you it's becoz u still haven't experienced what i had experienced before. Fighting alone is not a easy thing. It's only me to handle , manage all the outcomes including the good or bad thing. Do not trigger me. I am not responsible to listen you guys opinion. I just need caring and that is.

We all colleagues went to new office to have a look today. I have no idea how come my seating position is so far away from my team members. What's the problem?

My throat is super painful. I hope it will get well as soon as possible.

When I read 衛斯理 series, he said that when U felt more thirsty in the sea than you are in dessert provided that your water had been already out. It's because when U were in dessert, U knew that there was no water so your mind would coordinate with it. However, when u were in the sea, u can see water surrounding you even it was the sea ware. Also, u knew that those water u must not drink. You mind would be more fuzzy than the previous case. It's becoz u kept reminding yourself u can't drink.

My scenario was similar here. I am still working hard on my study. When I was in Perth, there's no entertainment, just a laptop , internet and mp3. Then, I just knew there 's nothing entertainment and concentrated to my study. However, I am in master course and in HK now. There's a lot of distractions. I also have to control myself more and concentrate my study. I also wanted to chat with people. However, there's nothig much people whom is willing to chat with me. Y? Anyway, I still thank to those good friends who is encouraging to me and chatting with me. Thank You!

I just wondered whether the world had so much cold-blooded people. Just like today, I told another that I would be died from boredom. Then, another said that it's my call and no choice. Well, I just wondered that whether there is everyone really understood the feeling of a person after fighting alone.

I just thought that what a person needed after fighting alone is the caring....

It is always not a easy and sweet to fight something u have to fight alone...

Can a creature influence another creature?

I found out that there was not so much people ( not none) can really understand my words. A good thing was I am optimistic that I did not so care about too much that I still felt it's ok ( maybe it's also from my arrogant ).

I forgot to bring umbrella today and it was heavy rain after studying. When I waited for smaller rain at the entrance, an middle age woman told me that she can do me a favour and sheltered with her umbrella until reaching the convenience shore so that I can buy an umbrella inside.

One thing I still do not understand. A stranger can do me a favour. However, y the people U know especially your friends ( maybe sometimes include your family members occasionally ) did not have such a sense to care.

Where is my limitation? It seemed that my limitation is keeping expandng...

Today is full of ethics topic...

Question:
Are you willing be modelled by others?

This world has too much unfair thing...

When will it be ended? If that thing is ended, then I should go to mine. However, is it really existed? or just do not care others, keep chasing it?

Still not far away, do not let others model yourself, hang on. Be youself and insist are more important.

When I watched "Full Metal Alchemist", it stated that there is a soul of the story which was "the principle of equilibrium". It meant that if you want to get something, u also had to pay something out to exchange. In the meantime, I believed that this principle was existed. However, it was not necessary always true. Nevertheless, we all have to work hard for our achievements.

But, sometimes you worked hard long times, you still get what you wanted. However, you still lost something...

I think that I need to focus more...

Actually, I haven't said once about "Full Metal Alchemist"