Cont'd

Even I believe I am harmless, how come no people is still dare close to me.

For work, colleagues never asked me to have lunch with. Even I asked whether I can join. They just asked another or another. What did I do? I did not even talk to U. I wanted to open myself to others. But Y? It is just a dichotomy: "U should not close to the one U are not familiar with" Then, those who are new are always new. It just like exiling the new one. Y? Aren't we should be united? If U wanted to be reality, then I give U reality.

For friends, I really don't like hi-bye friends. And, I really don't want to be perfunctory deal with my friends. I am asking for the quality relationship. I understand "respect" is the basic thing I have to do. But, it doesn't mean that I know everything how I respect all people. Every human are individual. Some people just have their own standard. I understand that but I also need to know how. I think that not everyone are supposed others to understand everything ( maybe those are reminded many times before ) But I just want to say I really want to respect others. However, I just have no way to achieve that. I tried to talk. But just don't know how. I don't mean my friends have to be so friendly as me to them. It seemed that it was wrong I am "friendly" to them. I just want to find ways to respect others.

I really don't know Y. I have a strong sense that others just don't like my aura.