This feeling is back...When I was still in Uni, I had to had a quick lunch which was self-made sandwiches in the 1 hour break. In this hour break, I really could not rest too much. It's becoz I also had to prepare the next lesson. However, during this break, I always saw those dated boys and girls chatting happily with each other. At that time, I worked so hard becoz I had targets to achieve. During this time, I also had to endure this scenario. In the meantime, I just think that whether I should just forget about my targets and just do what those dated boys and girls do. I have struggled a long time. I never forgot my targets at that time....

This feeling came back again. I had no idea it came back. I kept telling myself I better worked hard and got a good result so that it's worth I spent most of my time in it.

Do not ask me Y I work so hard on it. U just does not undestand my reason in it. U can laugh at me about so dumb for not enjoying life. But I can tell you it's becoz u still haven't experienced what i had experienced before. Fighting alone is not a easy thing. It's only me to handle , manage all the outcomes including the good or bad thing. Do not trigger me. I am not responsible to listen you guys opinion. I just need caring and that is.